She is so annoying.

I. am. a. failure.

I woke up at 3am Wednesday morning an absolute mess. I had a million things running through my head, none of which I was going to fix at 3 am from my guest bathroom (( so the lights wouldn't wake Jason up )).

In a nutshell, one teeny problem I needed to fix created an entire snowball effect of being disappointed in who I was as a human, a creative and business owner. My irrational brain said I was failing at all the above. 

• I've launched a passion project that I sold exactly 1 of.

• I've started freelance designing logos that I'm sitting on in a folder.

• I started a blog that then scared me and I stopped.

• I started a clothing line that I didn't have the time to invest.

• I've painted, drawn, decorated things I know are pretty awesome, and find myself annoyed with the mess of it all.

I could keep this list going - it all boiled down to - why HER and not ME? Why is the girl who just started her handmade business has her items being carried at well known, high end boutiques and I can't seem to get it together?

I feel like I'm pretty talented - so what's holding me back?

Me.

How freaking annoying it is to come to this realization.  I am the ONLY thing holding me back (( it's me... I'M THE PROBLEM ))

How do you over come this? Does imposter syndrome ever dissipate?

Or is everyone just jumping out there without the fear of judgement?

After a long journaling session ( which brought up a lot of my irrational behaviors on paper ) , things I've gained clarity:

1. Hormones (nuff said)

2. Change my perspective.

3. Choose a creative project to work on for 30 days.

4. I can't skip on writing.

5. You guys will just have to get accustomed to hearing from me.

Do you ever feel the dreaded imposter syndrome ? How do you get past it?  (seriously - drop a comment below, I wanna hear from you!)

*and after a good, snotty, ugly cry after my journaling session, I ended up having a pretty fantastic day.

Cheers (from a more rational)!