I was not ready.

March 27, 2024

Tatum Nash made his grand appearance into our world 2 weeks earlier than expected, and I was not ready. 

We didn't have a hospital bag packed.  Most of his clothes hadn't been washed yet.  We still had lots of things still in boxes.  Intentions were to take care of all that wayyyyy before then.

Things just change when you become a mother, I was not ready.

Carrying Tatum for 10 months was very surreal experience for me.  I obviously knew that the outcome would be we had a little man to love on.  But the moment I heard that little cry - my world was rocked in the most amazing way ever.

Your relationship will never be the same, I was not ready.

Looking over and seeing Jason holding our little boy, I knew our already strong bond had just hit a new level.  We had our first moments with this little life that was part both of us, and I was overwhelmed with gratitude for our entire journey so far.  

There was nothing that could prepare me for all the emotions I've felt in the past week(ish).  I was indeed not ready for any of them.  I guess thats what makes it so special, I couldn't prepare.  I couldn't plan.  I had to just embrace and feel it all.

Cheers,